No Going Back

Leave 2018 Behind

 

 

Today is the last day of 2018.  For me, it has been a year of huge growth, a lot of lessons learned, and a time of overcoming struggle.  And not just for me, but for those I love as well.  I have had to learn to be very patient.  I have had to learn to be very diligent.  And I have had to learn that a lot of my problems were self-created.  It is not something that is easy to admit.  And even though realizing that I was the major contributor to my problems is not easy, I am glad that I can.  There was a point in my life where I did not have the maturity to do this.  I would blame others for the things that I didn’t like about my life.  I would spend precious energy looking for a reason or excuse as to why my life was a mess.   But the truth was, I was the problem. 

 

This year, I have learned that a good deal of my energy was focused on trying to control things that I didn’t have control of in the first place.  I have come to understand that to see change, I must be the one changing.  It can be extremely difficult at times.  But I have decided that I am not going back.  My energy is only going to go forward. The old habits of the past will be left behind.  Will I do this perfectly?  No.  Will I still struggle at times? Yes.  But half the battle of changing is making the decision to change. 

 

And when we decide to leave the past in the past, the only place to go is forward into the future.  We cannot change what occurred in the past.  We cannot control anyone but ourselves.  We can only do the best we can with what we have and where we are at.  There is no going back, because it is impossible.  So why do we spend so much time dwelling on things that we cannot change?  Spend your energy in the new year focused on what you have control over.  I am actually very excited for 2019.  I believe it will be my best year ever.